Tormented by his loneliness and isolation, Vincent Van Gogh found comfort in religion. Vincent was terribly lonely and he wanted to get rid of his loneliness by trying to get a purpose in life. He wanted to forget the days where he was mocked for being strange. The days where he had no one to turn to. Most of his memories were bad ones and his whole childhood was filled with hope. But, he never got what he wanted so instead he chose to throw all of his hope away and just move on. He completely disowned his hopes of being successful as an art dealer and instead he wanted to become "rich in God." Vincent felt that if he devoted his life to religion, he would receive forgiveness and redemption. He wanted to forget his past and in doing so, he got rid of all of his ideals/ beliefs. He turned his back to art, the one thing he was truly passionate about.
I don't think it's easy to just forget your problems and move on. Everything you do is stuck with you forever and it will always be behind you. It's just really hard to forget your past dreams and ambitions. You can't just leave painful experiences behind and move forward. It's difficult and sometimes you just end up remembering them again. I've been insulted many times in my life, and most of the time I just bury those bad memories in the back of my mind. But somehow they always manage to resurface. I can't forget them and I guess it just leaves a scar on me? I just can't leave the past behind because it's a part of me. The events that happened in the past have shaped who I am today. But I think Vincent did have the right idea in trying to leave his past behind him. He wanted to stop letting the past control him. Although It didn't really work and he couldn't change what happened, at least it did help him become happy for awhile.
Some questions: is it that easy to forget your past? Have you ever wanted to erase something from your memories?
My Reading Progress so Far:
I'm still procrastinating and it is bad and I'm regretting it...I had to jam 30 or so pages in one day and it was horrible. Sometimes I find my book hard to read because there's just so much info, but I am enjoying it!
Anyway, see you next week!!